Making the right choices
Making the right choices;
I new I had to make this choice although I have to admit I didn't want to but I couldnt stop it from happening.
You ask what went wrong? and I tell you nothing. It was simply the right time for you and the wrong time for me.
How do you know your ready for something?
Breaking something up is so terrible hard when you dont really want to, but you have to be honest. It will only hurt both parts more if you feel like your not ready. So have I now lost the person I fell inlove with completely?
Have you heard the new song from James Blunt? listen to the lyrics I think they have a deep meaning.
I feel a bit empty I miss what I had but I dont want you to make choices becuse of me and not go your own way. I dont want to be someone standing in your way. I miss you, one day your there and the other your gone...and it leaves an empty hole in my heart. I would be wrong if I didn't tell you I love you
Utkast: Some new ...
Some new pictures of me :PEverything seems to be working fine, working two days extra and...
Anyway had a really nice weekend, Whent shopping with N and then babysat. Although im no chef in the kitchen and im not really enjoying the AGA yet (but im starting to get there) but I had a nice dinner with the kids with loads of laughfter. Me and N had loads fun shopping and trying to find christmas presents and im happy that I succided in finding presents for my brothers and Computergeek.
Sunday I spent having a nice sleep in and then spending the day with F, had a nice dinner and Movie(James Bond and the QUANTUM OF SOLACE) it was a good movie. I perfect Sunday.
Haven't been writing for a while
When your friends start telling you that you haven't been writing for a while kind of makes you understand that they actually read this.
To update you about... Bleech(i think that is the proper way of spelling it) so... the cleaners has been here and the whole house smells of bleech atleast one hour after they left. They like their bleech and I honestly haven't seen bleech in my house back home not even once and here they have it everywere.
Windy last night and then comes the rain, it pours down and doesn't stop. Its been raining all day sigh if I could get a bit sun and not a gray sky. I see the point in the English weather its grey.
So now im going to spend another week with the family and also my hostmoms mom. She seems like a nice person the few times I have spoken with her on the phone.
This is me and angelina together, my friend big Momma showed me the sight
To update you about... Bleech(i think that is the proper way of spelling it) so... the cleaners has been here and the whole house smells of bleech atleast one hour after they left. They like their bleech and I honestly haven't seen bleech in my house back home not even once and here they have it everywere.
Windy last night and then comes the rain, it pours down and doesn't stop. Its been raining all day sigh if I could get a bit sun and not a gray sky. I see the point in the English weather its grey.
So now im going to spend another week with the family and also my hostmoms mom. She seems like a nice person the few times I have spoken with her on the phone.
This is me and angelina together, my friend big Momma showed me the sightLondon Sightseeing
Here are some pictures taken from London Eye at night. Its really beutiful with all the lights and you can't see the end of the town wich is amazing considering how high up you are.
Hoppas ni kanner igen monumenten
It was a beutiful day weather splendid and company great. I seem to like London more and more, there's one palce I haven't visited yet and that is Camdentown, I hope to be going there soon.
So having a nice time, are we?
So having a nice time, are we?
So the people you least expect to fall in love, find a girlfriend/boyfriend, in your surrounding seems to find someone. I mean the people you really the least expect. Like the guy who is know as the glue guy(known by J) he even succeds with finding someone. The person that I never seen smiled and barely speaks had text her saying, "Im inlove with you" and that was it.
Us normal people spend so much time effort and struggle so hard but the again most of the time we end up with nothing. When or how do you make that nothing to someone?
So the question is we all want love don't we? I mean there must be loads of singels out there wanting someone to be with, why do we all play this game? The dating game where no one understands no one. Even I dont understand when my friend a guy asks me how a girl thinks. To be honest I have no clue... im so trying to figure out how I think.
So to end this, (if someone happens to read it please dont only read it leave a comment so I know who this person is that has taken time to read someones thoughts), I would like to say take it easy dont be in a rush you'll find that someone eventhough you dont think so. Who said that it has to happen soon? I didn't and you shouldn't!
The Authers Freddy and Rebbe
So the people you least expect to fall in love, find a girlfriend/boyfriend, in your surrounding seems to find someone. I mean the people you really the least expect. Like the guy who is know as the glue guy(known by J) he even succeds with finding someone. The person that I never seen smiled and barely speaks had text her saying, "Im inlove with you" and that was it.
Us normal people spend so much time effort and struggle so hard but the again most of the time we end up with nothing. When or how do you make that nothing to someone?
So the question is we all want love don't we? I mean there must be loads of singels out there wanting someone to be with, why do we all play this game? The dating game where no one understands no one. Even I dont understand when my friend a guy asks me how a girl thinks. To be honest I have no clue... im so trying to figure out how I think.
So to end this, (if someone happens to read it please dont only read it leave a comment so I know who this person is that has taken time to read someones thoughts), I would like to say take it easy dont be in a rush you'll find that someone eventhough you dont think so. Who said that it has to happen soon? I didn't and you shouldn't!
The Authers Freddy and RebbeSince when doesn't the world have time?
So not only irritated by not being able to send away text from my room in lack of connection, I notice everyone is busy or going to bed. When did the world become so busy, was it in lack of space, privacy or is it a fact of time?
When did I become so unreachable, I mean some of my friends at home I barely hear from... wich disappoints me in one way, spending a whole month away without a word.
Getting bored because you have to much time, wich results that you find something to do so you dont have that much extra time. People with lack of time get stressed people with too much time get stressed... so how do you find the way to use the proper time of your time?
Im not a scientist nor am I a person who want to spend my time looking more in to it so I'll leave it at this point.
When does families get time to be together for a whole day. Maybe on their day of if they haven't scheduled that up too much and have to give lifts all day with diffrent children.
There is time to be together and that is on holidays wich are spent hopefully away but then again, you still want to do stuff. When was the last time you sat down and thought "Im going to do nothing, take it easy and relax" not making lists in your head on what to do on the next day.
Have you ever though about that the minute that just passed can never been experienced again? If you have though that way, do you then think how would I like to spend my next one?
So that is a part that was running through my head for the moment...
and I'll keep asking myself Why
When did I become so unreachable, I mean some of my friends at home I barely hear from... wich disappoints me in one way, spending a whole month away without a word.
Getting bored because you have to much time, wich results that you find something to do so you dont have that much extra time. People with lack of time get stressed people with too much time get stressed... so how do you find the way to use the proper time of your time?
Im not a scientist nor am I a person who want to spend my time looking more in to it so I'll leave it at this point.
When does families get time to be together for a whole day. Maybe on their day of if they haven't scheduled that up too much and have to give lifts all day with diffrent children.
There is time to be together and that is on holidays wich are spent hopefully away but then again, you still want to do stuff. When was the last time you sat down and thought "Im going to do nothing, take it easy and relax" not making lists in your head on what to do on the next day.
Have you ever though about that the minute that just passed can never been experienced again? If you have though that way, do you then think how would I like to spend my next one?
So that is a part that was running through my head for the moment...
and I'll keep asking myself Why
Stratford-Upon-Avon
Ni far ursakta om bilderna inte ar sa bra men... min kamera och jag har blivit lite ovanner. :P
Anyway had a brilliant day with N and A, lovely weather and lovely town. It was also perfect timing because the fair was in the town.
Anyway had a brilliant day with N and A, lovely weather and lovely town. It was also perfect timing because the fair was in the town.
Moonstalker is looking at the moon and missing its normal shine
What makes a person diffrent
So.. for thoose who like reading, will now read something that they dont really have to read because it's my mind twirling in circles on a space in writing.
The person that I think has found the greatest meaning of life most be Monty Pyton...
Now that I got that out of my head I think it's time for an update:
Manage to kick my foot in to the wall so its hurting and there might be a possibility I have broken it... nah... it most be harder to break a toe musten it?
Although I've worked hard and Angela has thanked me(in England they always say thanks all the time and they also use please and may I... trying to get use to it don't want to seem rude)
so where were I? yes so the bottom thing is that I need to ask for a lift tomorrow, so that I can join in two friends for a visit to Shakespears hometown. Otherwise I'll be spending alot of time on trains and busses. Wish me good luck!
I also have to pick up two dresses from the drycleaning, not use to that either but its an experience.
To not make this a to do list I should maybe talk of something else shouldn't I?
Anyway saw the moon this evening, haven't seen it in a while and here it's abit covered by the fog. It wasn't full nor half, makes you start to wonder...
So.. for thoose who like reading, will now read something that they dont really have to read because it's my mind twirling in circles on a space in writing.
The person that I think has found the greatest meaning of life most be Monty Pyton...
Now that I got that out of my head I think it's time for an update:
Manage to kick my foot in to the wall so its hurting and there might be a possibility I have broken it... nah... it most be harder to break a toe musten it?
Although I've worked hard and Angela has thanked me(in England they always say thanks all the time and they also use please and may I... trying to get use to it don't want to seem rude)
so where were I? yes so the bottom thing is that I need to ask for a lift tomorrow, so that I can join in two friends for a visit to Shakespears hometown. Otherwise I'll be spending alot of time on trains and busses. Wish me good luck!
I also have to pick up two dresses from the drycleaning, not use to that either but its an experience.
To not make this a to do list I should maybe talk of something else shouldn't I?
Anyway saw the moon this evening, haven't seen it in a while and here it's abit covered by the fog. It wasn't full nor half, makes you start to wonder...
Life passes
Life goes on...
So before lunch I manage to help A out before the Charity Coffe morning. Meanwhile it was I took freddy out for a 1 hour walk wich ended up in one and a half hour. This week I've been working quite good I still manage to forget stuff wich disappoints me when I have to be reminded. I always try to do my best though.
For thoose who like reading I can truly recomend the books, Chinese Cinderella, Chocolate and Atonement. Right now im reading Atonement and im really stuck in it.
So time passes by but I keep feeling the same, thats true sometimes, sometimes you even wait for time to pass. Every second that passes can never be gained again its lost in what's called history of time. Every day is a new day and every year takes you a year closer to the day you'll leave the body your in. So therefor take care of thoose times seeing people in your surronding because you never know when it will end and how.
Life's a bitch, you always marry her and most of the time it ends up in divorce
So before lunch I manage to help A out before the Charity Coffe morning. Meanwhile it was I took freddy out for a 1 hour walk wich ended up in one and a half hour. This week I've been working quite good I still manage to forget stuff wich disappoints me when I have to be reminded. I always try to do my best though.
For thoose who like reading I can truly recomend the books, Chinese Cinderella, Chocolate and Atonement. Right now im reading Atonement and im really stuck in it.
So time passes by but I keep feeling the same, thats true sometimes, sometimes you even wait for time to pass. Every second that passes can never be gained again its lost in what's called history of time. Every day is a new day and every year takes you a year closer to the day you'll leave the body your in. So therefor take care of thoose times seeing people in your surronding because you never know when it will end and how.
Life's a bitch, you always marry her and most of the time it ends up in divorce
Fabric and Being good
This weekend I spent going out clubbing with Nora. We went to a club called the Fabric and I had loads of fun but In the morning around 5 both Nora and me were really Tired but we had to wait for the underground to open. We finally arrived home at half past eight. During the night in the club we danced, we danced for hours we are really good at. :DBefore the morning got to close we had named one guy who tryied so hard to flirt with me. He tried all the normal flirting and was really working hard to flirt with me. He soon got the name "Pathetic" He was nice to talk to and I didn't mind him flirting although he should have noticed that I wasn't intrested.
Been good today, been working, gone to the gym, done my homework and now doing this.
Nice weather to:P I sent my Nana and Auntie today and I hope they will resive them quite soon because I haven't sent them any before wich maybe I should have but I hope they dont mind.
Gillar den har bilden skarp! Love this pic!
It might seem a bit selfish having pictures of yourself in abig pisture, but Im happy to say I didn't do this one. Im so likin this picture because I had forgotten about most of them and they all brings back memories. Brilliant memories, Me and you always have loads of fun together and I miss our fun. <3 I'll see you at Christmas we are going to have a blast, just so you know!
And for thoose who think I smoke, I don't its a fixed up picture. :P Good work there babes(a new expression I learned from people in Cambridge)
Some nice pictures from the walk, im getting better at taking pictures of nature.
Me and Freddy are great at going for walkes
Freddy is a really cute dog but beware he barks at strangers. It's a pleasure walking him, you need no lead and he follows you. All you need is a bit of candy and then your off to see the woods of Chorleywood. Went today for a one hour walk, did it because I needed some fresh air and it was a really nice weather and still is.
This is how I live
Travell from home
To travell from the place you spent three years in, pass the town you lived most of your life in and get on a buss on your way to a strange place to spend a year there can be a challange. So I managed, disturbing my friends by calling them when I was bored on the buss but then... Reciveing two letters, both to be opened on the plane. I'll tell you I wept it was so wonderful to get two so caring and meaningful letters. I miss you both extremly :D
I also miss my other friends, thoose I spend time with every day and every week. I miss my home to but then again I really like it here getting in to the rutin makes you feel more at home here.
So I got lost from the topic abit, travell from your home is a great thing but as I said can be hard. I love to travell, this time im travelling/living abroad for one year wich makes the departure harder. I like being away gives you the change of having a new life kind of so for all of thoose who wants to travell... DO IT
Starting My New Life
SO im starting my new life, in England. At the picture im at Picadilly Square, out with a friend exploring London. Im working as an Au Pair here, who figured hmm... most of my friends I mean it's a really nice experience and I will improve my english much more ey?
